Dear You

Tonight I went to hear a speaker and wanted to turn around and walk out as soon as I sat down. The first sentence I heard was "I'm sure some of you have experienced heartache". "Too soon!" I wanted to yell. The speaker said I need to be completely vulnerable and to take a few Tylenol. I've checked half of it off the list, here's the other half.

Dear You,

I want more of my heart back and less of the ache. But, if the ache is what you want me to go through to get to the other side, I will. All of the sources say I should play hard to get, but I can't chance you watching me walk away again. I can't give you that ultimatum of stopping me or losing me. I know all the stories and magazines say I should "be glamorous" and "move on with my life". I tried, but today I couldn't even fake a smile for my boss. So I'm living my life, but I'm asking you to come along. This isn't a cool girl act, but this is honesty. I want you, please want me.

Come Thou Fount

A couple years ago I noticed that during every soccer game I'd find myself subconsciously singing these lyrics in my head. This has carried into other aspects of my life. Without thought, when stress enters, so do these words. In this I will always find comfort.

Come thou fount of every blessing

Tune my heart to sing Thy grace

Streams of mercy never ceasing

Call for songs of loudest praise.

Teach me some melodious sonnet

Sung by flaming tongues above.

Praise the mount

I'm fixed upon it

Mount of Thy redeeming love.

Here I raise my Ebenezer,

Here by Thy great help I've come.

And i hope by Thy good pleasure

Safely to arrive at home.

Jesus sought me when a stranger,

Wandering from the fold of God.

He to rescue me from danger

Interposed His precious blood (precious blood).

Oh that day when freed from sinning

I shall see Thy lovely face.

Clothe it then in blood washed linen

How I'll sing thy sovereign grace.

Come my Lord no longer tarry

Take my ransom soul away.

Send Thine angels now to carry

Me to realms of endless days.

Oh to grace how great a debtor

Daily i'm constraint to be!

Let Thy goodness like a fetter,

Bind my wandering heart to thee.

Prone to wander Lord i feel it

Prone to leave the God I love.

Here's my heart

Oh take and seal it.

Seal it for thy courts above.

Here's my heart

Oh take and seal it

Seal it for thy courts above.