Leap of Faith

A leap of faith..

First you'll lose your breath when you see how far the drop is.

There will be tears, I promise you that.

Don't worry though, the wind will dry those tears and erase every fear.

Your arms will flail, you'll kick your legs. But try to stay still and watch everything speeding by.

You'll see life.

You wanted to stay at the top, looking for the bottom.

But, you took the leap and saw everything in the middle.

Suddenly, you stopped looking for the end.

Yet another list

We all make lists. I'm not the color coordinated, post-it note, perfectly organized type, but I'm just like you because we all make lists. We list homework, goals, grocery necessities, daily tasks, etc. In fact, lists have been a reoccurring theme in my blog. What I don't see, or talk about often is how to stay happy at all times. I'm prepared for a boring day with a kite in my back seat, I have a book bag full of books just in case I have a spare moment. But, sometimes your best friend is busy working, your boyfriend will need "me time" and a date with video games, homework won't sound fun, and winter will prevent the flying of a kite. What then?

1. Sing 2 songs: 1. a song that has notes you can reach and makes your feel good and sassy

2. turn this song all the way up so you can scream it, love it, and not hear how awful you sound. Stay away from screamo though..that's scary

2. Let yourself cry, then look in a mirror and laugh at your slowly contorting face. Ugly cry = supa hott

3. Create a surprise for the person you miss, which is the reason you're sad, but it will be reversed if you make something pretty and happy.

4. "...love life and joyously live each day to it's ultimate good." - I see you Alpha sisters!

5. sit pretzel style in leggings while drinking tea..you'll feel artsy

6. Read likealittle.com and tell yourself you are every single girl mentioned. Everyone loves you!

7. Read Isaiah 40:28-31. Then read it in another language, just for kicks and giggles.

8. Pretend you like "me time" (which I actually despise and don't believe in) and start a journal. It's so fun to look back at the dates of special occasions!

9. highlight absolutely everything in your planner. If you're like my sister, you can have a little "key" at the top of the page specifying what each color represents.

10. Tell yourself you rock, and believe it.

Next time you find yourself reaching for the kleenex to wipe your tears are everything that goes wrong or nothing that goes right, think of this list and pick one thing. I want to hear you giggle again.

11. Blog about being happy...CHECK

Kat

Run Away

Today is one of those days I'd just like to escape. There is nothing bad about it really, but the sky is gloomy and the building of pressure isn't something I want to deal with at the moment. In a way I'm feeling quite successful. It's 1:40 P.M. and I've already been to work, 3 classes, a meeting with my Chem. prof. and did some Chem. reading while eating lunch. Not to mention, I've officially gone a week without crying over pointless/unknown causes. So, it's true, "life is good". I am content. Buuut, today I was in a student union building filled with people and I had my phone by my side. Yet, I sat alone and my texts weren't met with replies. So often I look at look at Chris and tell him we should run away, just leave campus. Of course I'm only kidding, but today that thought doesn't seem so awful. I could be invisible by choice.

But, I do have one happy thought....

There's always tomorrow, or heck, 5 minutes from now. Knowing me, I could be happy as a clam by that point. Actually, scratch that. I WILL BE happy as a clam. Well that's rather exciting, don't ya think?

Better already,

Kat

'92 Cherokee on the road again

I'm so excited for Fuel tonight! I've always loved my home church, but for many years I never really connected with youth group. I wasn't the girl that showed up early and stayed late. But, God has blessed me these past few months with a group of girls to not only go to church on Sundays with, but Monday night Fuel and Tuesday Bible study as well. My car officially has too few seats to fit everyone and I absolutely love it! Having the chance to worship with the people I do life with everyday is an amazing experience and I can't wait to start filling up the trunk with the overflow of gals:)

Disclaimer

I feel as if I should apologize for the purging of the flowery, feel good, mushy stuff lately. I have been loving the chance to live in my dream world, but let's admit it...it's been excessive. So, a few more sides of reality that is ever present in my life.

1. I have political opinions (it's true, I watch the news).

2. I spend hours a day studying and, sometimes, I complain.

3. While my perfect man and I have yet to have our first fight, we have had confrontations.

I realize life is imperfect; maybe that explains why I make my posts so cheesy. Sometimes it's fun to try and reverse the irreversible. I fight stress by pretending it doesn't exist. Sorry if it has made you gag a time or two.

Kat

Stepping on toes

I'm the kind of gal that dreams of dancing, but ends up stomping. The first time I slow danced with a guy I'm pretty sure I took a ride on his toes. It's cute when little girls stand on their daddy's feet buuuut then there's me. It was so unfair because it was that awkward stage where all girls are taller than ALL boys. So i just looked down on him while pretending my hair was blowing in the wind, when really it was falling out of the bobby pins from my abrupt stumbles. But, that didn't stop me from dancing to the melodies in my head, dreaming of pretty princesses and fairytales, even at age 18. I got the chance to step on toes again a few days ago when I went to Walgreens for stamps and ended up being twirled through the aisle as my boy took my hand and stopped life long enough to spin with me amongst the Hallmarks.

Never stop dancing, because one day the song in your head may be the song coming through the speakers and someone might hear it and grab your hand. Don't be afraid to step on toes, because one day that boy might grow tall enough to grab your heart.

kat

fix-its

Recipe for a happier soul:

unlimited cups of hot tea

fuzzy blanket(s)

shaved legs

painted nails

cookie dough

mom

Recipe for a happier body that needs to rock a bikini by march:

NO COOKIE DOUGH

...my soul is very happy right now

sadly satisfied,

Kat